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Welcome to my dysfuntional blog..... A blog for chronicling my immeasurably fascinating dysfuntions, neuroses, emotions, inner children, moments of shame and doubt, projection, self-loathing, misanthropy, and completley normal insanity, because the only difference between me and the rest of the population is that I acknowledge how crazy I am and they're all in mind-numbing denial. I think you're nuts...but you're welcome here! I roll cooler than you, Holmz!
March 18th, 2010
I'm just a human being, trying to make it in a world that is very rapidly losing it's understanding of being human...
You can never have too many friends; at least that's my take on life. Friends are there to laugh with us, keep us sane and basically to stop ourselves from isolating ourselves in our own little world, which can be more damaging then good. The kids are gone for March Break, so I surrounded myself with a lot of my friends I sadly disconnected myself from these past few years (sad face). They are forgiving, thankfully. I realize how a lot of my friends are unique in their own way, doing their own thing and living their own dreams independently while maintaining a good solid relationship with eachother. Their skills have empowered me to take a stand with my own desire! DO DO DO...don't talk about it, just do it! I think these are just the friends I needed all my life, and the friends I want to keep in my life. I took on so many new things this past week, sign language, guitar lessons, learning Ojibway and our way of life, and you can never do enough hikes despite the long cold nights lol. There was one thing I grasped this past week, and it really was quite amazing really. I guess you never really lose a past talent, its finding that spot to revive it that matters. Yes I have been drawing again. A few may recall I used to be very talended with sketching and drawing (not stick men, but actual things). It used to be easy for me, but now it comes with a little challenge that gets easier and easier by the day. I guess thats the way all challenges are meant to be.
So I am finally wrapping up the last few weeks of my job, and I have been looking forward to a break for quite sometime now. Options are in mind but nothing is ever really set in stone until the day of. I do know I have an option to extend if that is my wish, but a few other offers have also come my way so I shall take my time thinking it over and enjoy doing my other side projects. I enjoy playing the Guitar, and it's coming quite naturally for me. I always wanted to learn to play it, and I honestly don't know why it has taken me this long to try it. I guess there is always some lame excuse to not do anything but I'm learning quick, the only limitations in life are the ones we give ourselves. The way I see things, life is too short to have limits. Enjoy it, live it and have fun.
And that's all she wrote....until next time :)
March 11th, 2010
"....And all I wanted was the whole entire world".
Another birthday has come and gone but I really don't feel any older, or any different. I wasn't expecting much to change but I can definatley most see it and feel it happening around me. A few months back I made the decision to return to my community and dedicate my time working with the youth and the community. Somewhere along the lines, my job all tied into one and I seemed to progress professionally and developed a positive healthy working relationship with the membership of my community, including the youth and elders. This was indeed my goal to begin with. I had worries, I won't lie! A part of me feared coming home because I always thought, the bad qualities would win me over and it would eventually become my fate. There was so much thrown at me these past few weeks which made it easier to want to give in, but I focused on my goal and my desire deemed more important. I've come to realize that there is a bit of fear in everything I do, and I choose to do things because I love facing those challenges, and over coming them. I guess I've always been a fighter, and I'll fight for what I love.
This evening I attended a round table discussion with my local elders and was honoured to have been asked to be apart of something big within the community. I think I'll have my work cut out for me, and although this direction has many struggles and sacrafices, I know it will pay off in the end. I know, if my elders (leaders) ask you to be apart of something, then you should never say no. Some of us participated in a sweat shortly after and I have to say, I can never have enough of those now! I feel great.
So I've also been busy with quilting! Yes, quilting! I actually spend a whole day cutting out my patterns using various fabric and just started sewing them together, without ever acknowledging any colors or an idea in mind. I just know I wanted to make a star blanket, and took the advice of a great friend here in Onigaming...and she can make a star blanket in hours if she wanted to. For once in my life, I felt.....slow compared to her lol. So I wanted to sport some of the photos for everyone to see. I would also like to thank Kanina! If not for her then I wouldn't be into this at all. She's so creative in so many ways. And thanks to Cal for getting me my first sewing machine. It's been a wonderful gift that I'm putting to use very often these days :)
OK SO I WAS GONNA INSERT PHOTOS OF MY QUILTS BUT IT WASN'T WORKING PROPERLY. ANOTHER TIME I GUESS LOL
My next projects are going to consists of house stuff, like table tops, curtians, pillow cases, and all that other fun stuff. It's actually a great hobby to get into. I'll be making a jingle dress within the next few months, and I already started working my dads ribbon shirt.
Well anyway, good night folks! It's late and I'm tired.
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