Me and my babies, from left to right
Mason, Cameron, Mikinaak, Dayton and Wynter
I'd like to take a moment to introduce.....myself
*laughs* jks people. Gotta love Austin Powers though!
"I don't know if you noticed but I'm sort of a big deal around here"
JoanneShannonKelly
Live, laugh, learn, love and have fun!
Friday July 3rd, 2009
"When you argue with your inferiors, you convince them of only one thing: they are as clever as you."
Yup I am officially exhausted! Back home, tired, and everything is now catching up to me. I have time for a quick nap before I head on out to the pow-wow to watch the kids dance but my mind just won't let me lol. I think I'm just thrilled to be back home, with family and friends. It feels great, and exhausting lol. It's gonna be a beautiful weekend here in Onigaming :)
Here are some songs I was listening to early this morning in my bedroom, singing out loud too LOL. There are more but I couldn't find them, at least not yet. Time to go into town and cruise back for the pagent. Hope to see you all at the Onigaming pow-wow this weekend :)
Yep! I'm back! Ahh just in time to watch my babies dance tonight for the princess and brave pagent. I wanted to stay an extra night in the bush, stuck on my own little Island but I knew my family was awaiting me and I had to come home. I could of stayed out there at least an extra two more nights, but I did feel complete when I had left. All I have to say is...I'm happy I did it. Thrilled even! I can't even describe how I feel right now. Restored, revived, alive, happy, and grateful. I have all these positive feelings inside and it feels great. Just amazing. What is the first I did when I returned? It wasn't eat something! No no no not at all. I asked for an hour alone in my room, laid down on my bed, put on my ipod and sang out loud and danced in my bed for about an hour LOL. The sad thing about that is that Wynter thought I was crying LMFAO. Either way it felt great, and I felt great. I know some emotions still exist within but a huge chunk of it is also gone, which is what I really needed to get off my back. I'm just proud of myself. Being alone out there with no where to go, and time means nothing, you really begin to value everything in your life and it pushes you to take a look at your life a lot better. Sure I had some awkward experiences, I loved my visitors, and some unexplainable moments, but it helped me see the big picture. I even had the opportunity to see which direction my life was heading in, if I hadn't done this, and I'm glad I did what I did. Anyone who's ever been afraid to go fasting, shouldn't be. There is so much I want to share but never enough time in the day. I will, maybe, share it one day though lol.
Dear Joanne,
You are a beautiful smart proud ojibway woman, who is very independent and self aware. You love life and enjoy what it has to offer. You don't have to be an over-achiever. You're young, people look up to you, depend on you, or have high expectations of you. You don't need to meet all their expectations to make you feel good, you just have to meet your own expectations. Because people had high expectations of you, you neglected and pushed away the things you really desired in life, a steady job, a home, a healthy loving relationship, a family of your own, and most of all, yourself. Those who love you will want you to be happy with your own choices. Although there are some things that don't make sense in your life, you must realize that those teachings weren't meant for you to understand, rather than a lesson for someone else to learn. Life is a mystery, and sometimes you are the lesson for others. There are no faults and there are no blames. We are responsible for our actions and our own reactions, but understand that we have no control over other peoples behaviour, regardless of how much it hurts. Love those that love you, trust those that trust you, honour those that honour you, and respect those that have respect for you. But never hate. Forgive easily, laugh more, and take care of yourself. Life is what it is, people come and go. That's the way it always has been and thats the way it always will be. We are only visitors of this earth, and therefore you must love your life and cherish every single moment you have been given to spend here. Joanne, you're a wonderful person with so many great qualities, but don't try to do everything at once. Take your time, live life, have fun, be yourself, enjoy the company of others, laugh often, cry sometimes, and speak your mind. When something is wrong, say it, don't delay it. You are not super woman and you can't save everyone. Save what is worth saving, keep close what makes you happy, but never allow yourself to be unhappy. Those who feel the same will fight for it too. Life is too short to burden yourself over worry, things will happen the way they're meant to happen. Let your heart feel what it's feeling, but don't miss out on all the wonderful things that are happening in front of you. Don't let simple distractions derail you from living the life you want. Don't ever turn your back on the future by living in the past. But also remember, your past is what made you. Time heals old wounds, and you learn as you go because you can't figure it all out at once. Why put life on hold? There is no pause button. Like everyone else, if you want to be happy you have to work at it without hurting those that love you. Remember when you hurt or felt pain, so did others, and some felt it ten times more. Because it does hurt when something happens to you, sometimes it hurts the person who done it to you even more. Life was never meant for you to figure it out, life was meant for you to live. Live long and prosper lmfao...jks people! I just wanted to throw that cool Spock line in there lol.
Well its pow-wow time, my belly is fed and I'm responding to emails. Cindy says "I couldn't even eat because I thought about you out there, alone, stranded on some Island. I woke up all hours of the night just thinking about you and praying for you". Aww thanks so much Cindy, I'm glad you thought of me. Unlike my brother who said "I thought about you when I was eating" LOL. Sheesh, these people LOL. Anyway, time to prepare for the long day festivities. Its pow-wow time here in Onigaming *huge smiles*.
I am looking at Tuesday's update, remembering how frighten and scared I was, and how all those emotions came to me at once. I said I hope these days go by fast. And now I think, it went by way toooooo fast.
Tuesday June 30th, 2009
Eyes closed, taking a deep breath - this is it! Time to go Joanne. This is a huge step. A very big step, but it's a step towards something positive and that's how I should look at it. A complete cleanse eh? I wonder what's next? I hope these days go by fast!
When the defining moment comes,
either you define the moment,
or the moment defines you.
visits